To: Charmian
I doubt you ever come to my blog, but here it goes. I'm not sure why i'm actually doing this, maybe its because i want to let you know that i was 100% sincere when i actually apologised to you through sms a week or two ago. I heard that you doubted my sincerity, and that got me well, mad of course. I plucked up enough courage to let go of my pride to apologise, and you doubted my well intentions. So, i took back the apology.
Why did i ostracize you? I actually dont have any reason for that. Its just that well, it seems as if i had to choose between you and denise.I mean with you two not really getting along and all. And i chose denise, because i felt that she and i clicked more. From then on, i guess i could only see all your bad points and never your good points. Its wrong of me to have chosen a friend over another, i know.
Why did i even decide to apologise? Well, thats because i realised how depressing it is to be dao-ed by a friend. I experienced that, and so i thought you might have felt like that too. Hence, deciding to apologise. Another reason is because, i do enjoy hanging out with you in class and all. Not that i ever admitted it, but you are a nice person and i know that. Now, i dont think i'm ever going to apologise knowing that you, would not accept it. Its like a waste of my time to apologise to you.
But i welcome if you think that maybe hey, i was sincere in my apology after all, and that maybe you would accept it. [percentage is low, but heck] I dont mind having another friend, seriously. But if you really dont think i am sincere about it at all, then its okay. I dont mind either. I'm neutral about the situation.
To: Mandy and Christabel
Another two who wont come to my blog, but heck. Hm, i was wondering about something. And maybe you two can enlighten me? You two were angry at me for ostracizing charmian right? Saying i was mean to her and all? Then why was it okay for you two to ostracize rachel ong last year, and such a crime for me to be ostracizing charmian [no offence]? You guys were super mean to rachel ong if i recalled. Isnt it the same thing? Just curious.
13.6.06
(SALVATION)
