I couldnt really remember what kind of person i was in lower secondary. Did i hate anyone? Did i find good friends that i will treasure for life? I went "back into time" and decided to copy some blog posts here! haha. i realised what a short-tempered and angry girl i was! goodness, horrible. haha.


to the sucking bitch:U are such a kiss up n suck up lor. U think people like u but actually answer is no. u are like so beyond hope anymore.nobody can stand you except those who u act guai infront of. so wad if u can be vulgar, u think i can't arh u bitch.u damn bitch purposely act guai infront of ppl u like, for example the obvious one is seniors.u pretend to be close to them n pretend dat u have e best attitude among all of us. who u think u are lor. u are just worse den us.the attitude u have sucks alot k. u also boss us around lor..wad e heck.we are all sec1s n nobody should boss each other around.dat is plain bitchy.do u think i care if u suck up a lil? too bad coz u suck up too much dat nobody can take it anymore. u n ur stupid temper.when u angry all of us give into u.n u take advantage of that by venting ur damn anger on us. i really feel like calling a bitch in ur face man. u think u r e only person on earth dat feels depressed n down? when we feel down, not only do we get depressed but ur damn temper makes it worse. i really feel like exploding in ur bloody face man. ppl sympathize with u when u make urself look so pitiful. do ya noe of how pathetic u are or not.ppl dun sympathize with ur troubles but ur patheticness. u r just taking advantage of other ppl's kindness everytime.we r not born to be under u lor.think again mans...u are the worse bitch i have ever come across.ur damn bloody attitude needs a makeover.

to the grp of irritating assholes:u ppl are yet another kind lor.irritating pests.cant u just like keep ur mouth shut more often or not arh.damn annoying lor. scream n scream n scream. forgotten u got classmates rite.shitters.u ppl arh.scream like hell n annoy people so much.ppl tell u all "shut up" n den u get angry.wads ur bloody problem lor. den ppl tok a lil bit u must complain say noisy.u compare ur noise level to ours n see how long u can compare.u ppl shut up if not u have no rite to tell us to shut up as and when u want silence.we also wan silence sometimes but wun tell u all to shut up coz u get angry.now u ppl are definitely getting on ppl's nerves already can. u damn group of people need to be shut up n taught a big damn lesson

to that critizing bitch:here it goes. u only noe how to critisize other ppl rite. i really had enuff of u n ur damn nonsense mind u and so will others.u critisize ppl when u r angry n u always think that u are right.just wanna knock ur head on the bloody wall n wake u up from ur perfect dream.coz u are so not perfect.no one is in fact. dun tell me u din haf the common sense to figure dat out.some ppl can just pretend that all e words u have said badly about them are invisible but i simply cant.i had enough of giving in to you also already. i really feel like punching ur damn face.n stop giving ur pitiful looking face to ppl.u another suck up.ergh!

-23/07/04


Goodness, did i hate this people so much? haha. hmm, i think i know who i was scolding in this blog post. glad to say that now i enjoy the company of the "group of irritating assholes" and that i think "critizing bitch" is very comical. i still hate the "sucking bitch" though. haha. i sounded so immature in my posts! haha. its like as if i cant express myself properly, hence using such lousy english! haha. gosh, i did grow up ((:


Damnit.life just sucks.i realise that my supposedly good friends are keepin secrets or at least things from me.i guess u guys are trying to tell me we arent good friends?! argh! to think i tot we were almost best friends,thanks alot. make up ur mind whether u wanna be my friend, which i realli wish would be a yes, and dun keep on changing ur mind.i'm still a human tat has feelings.

-14/03/05

oh no! i think i know who i'm referring too in this blog post too! goodness, nevermind. so now at least i'm comforted by the fact that our friendship has gone through lots of rough times [including one that we just managed to get over], but we are still friends! maybe not the best of friends, but i do treausre your friendship. (:


Jesiska
Okays, so u've been realli nice to me since forever. you arh,sucha smarty pants.dun like you.everything also get higher than me wan.=X i bet you can get into IP or any stream that you wan so stop worrying so much kay? haha.you are like too easy to be bullied liao.so mandy and i are training you to become a lil more hard hearted.hehs.everyone in class most likely noes about the lil secret.it wasnt suppose to be like told to others la!but nvmd,haha.this kinda thing is hard to keep a secret coz its so true..crushes crushes..hahaha XD shall keep my mouth shut from now on k?[not as if anyone doesnt noe about it]. and i still dun get how drinking fizzy drinks can make you cry!! seriously it makes no sense lah. ohya,and dun think that becoz jesiska is skinny doesnt mean she eats v lil. she eats like alot wan lah.haha.and i love ur new hair..so thin..so nice..so nice..haha.hmms,let together try for vjc or triple science. jiayou!! =))

Wanling
Ms tabletennis champ. hello! i noe u shall become singapore's next li jiawei! when you become so famous pls dun ever forget me, ur nicenice friend.haha.u arh, veh cute cute wan! i like i like! then your tabletennis pro pro wan. u arh,too efficient as a chinese rep liao lah.haha.but u're nice coz u let me hand in my hw late sometimes..i dun understand why u let chris aka bella become ur personal secretary lor..she so blur sotong wan.haha.anyways, u are a wonderful and helpful friend.always so willing to help teach me how to serve xia quan! so sweet lah u.haha.now u arh become abit siaosiao wan coz of nicole's influence. haha. can go to woodbridge liao le!! accompany me kk? i down there v lonely no one to tok too. hehs. anyways, rock on and pls rmb me when u become a national player! jiayou!! =))


Christabel aka bella aka reena aka david
Wahkao...how come ur name so long de..take up so much space.haha.u lah.tok so much during science lesson then ms thang keep staring at us. all ur fault. now my good student image has disppeared!! XD okay..wadeva lah.haha. i hafta admit that ur badminton is pro..u always haf training then see u all run alot. haha. gd for u lah.hmms, u literature genius lah. u chao mean can..never help me improve my literature.ohya,i'm awfully sorry bout pulling ur hair out coz i din cut it properly[can u sense the sacarsm?] u siaosiao wan also.become wanling's personal secretary..pls lah.wanling was juz nice to accept u with all ur lousy qualifications.hahaha. IQ low..EQ low..dun even noe how to be angry for more than 40sec..tsktsktsk.haha. then u like always get into trouble with ur chi teacher for not handing in hw..oh why did i hafta get u as a partner. okays, i shall not be mean anymore.Hard to admit this,but christabel, u haf been a nice,helpful and comical partner.made lessons more interesting oso.haha. but so fun to bully u leh!! =D okays, anyways, jiayou!! =))

Weiting aka grand daughter
Ahma loves you wor!! =) yes i love my grand daughter alot. i din noe when i became her ahma but i never regretted. haha. sitting behind her is so fun lah..got to noe u better and find that u are a real nice,helpful,caring and funny friend. yesh. so happie that i got to noe u better this term!!haha.u arh, so notti wan. always playing and laughing then kenna sick so mani mani times. u must learn how to control ur playfulness lah darling!!haha.dun always get urself sick by playing so muchh. and weiting loves chloey and angel!! yay~ weiting, u haf good taste! unlike some bella i noe of. =X hms, her chinese chao pro wan la!! so scarie k..haha. then now she has 'grown up' and has a 'pop group' of her own called 'Porkstar' so cute wan leh their logo..haha.. Porkstar is nice =P lynette also like weiting, abit siaosiao wan..thats why they make a great pair in Porkstar!! okays, weiting, i will be ur ahma forever kk? jiayou!! =))

Jaime
my darling tuition buddy!! science tuition can be a bore at times, so jaime is my talking friend during science tuition..haha. she rocks k? she joined my tuition when i asked if she could join to accompany me. now thats wad gd friends do.haha. hmms, she this girl veh enthu about alot of things like the buzz @ canteen! she dance damn natural lor.got a kinda twist de.haha. dats why she does cheerleading too. she is like talented in the dancing area. =D she also another good in chinese de.somemore higher chinese lor!! pro!! haha. teach me teach me. shes also good in geog right? yah i think so. and she totally loves oleander..bottle oso orange in colour de.haha. i love her youngest sister, michelle. shes so adorable lah. love her to bits. dun worrie, i like e oldest sister too!! hmms, dunno which stream u wanna go too leh..anyways..u must...jiayou!! =))

Shermaine
i still dun believe that u can be tired of brownies lor..i mean it has chocolate in it!! how can ms shermaine lou, the queen of chocolates, be sian of brownies. besides the fact that it is chewy..i dun geddit. and u somemore wanted my chocolate earlier. tsk. u so fickled minded. haha. u another smarty pants. why u take my science notes then can score higher than me. i dun care, next time i dun lend u le..i wan u to tuition me literature. ur literature so pro wan lor..u must help me with lit!! if not i smack u hor.haha.u another tabletennis pro person. dun like u lah. all rounder kind..envious! i love ur 'la qiu'..so cool! the ball fly so fast..if kenna hit sure get one big red spot wan lor.haha. dun like u dun like u dun like u..how can u be so mean n be an all rounder?! u wanna make me jealous right?? hmph. anyways, jiayou!! =))

-27/06/05

This was the first dedications i ever did on a blog! haha. i took out some dedications from the original posts, because i find it not very appropriate now. i cant believe i praised shermaine using one whole paragraph! ahh! goodness. what rubbish. haha. and i conclude that jesiska is my ultimate honey! ((:


I have just deleted all the posts on this blog except the last one because i realized that i have bitched about others in all those posts. I dont want to hang on to that past because i never want to be that person again.

-05/09/05

Well, golly. i am proud of myself for that! haha. i think at that time, i was really very inspired to be forgiving and loving to everyone including people i hate, because of the sec2 church camp! haha. i hope i can keep it up ((:


Jesiska aka TandyCandy
You are one cute, paranoid and naive little girl! Always so worried that I'm angry with you and all. I will never get angry with you, I will only ostracize you when i am in a bad mood. In fact i ostracize almost everyone when i am in the bad mood. You see? I don't get angry with my dearest friend! =)I got to know you like at the beginning of our cedar life last year because you happened to get into tabletennis! But we didn't become good friends until the end of last year. You have also been a good friend to me, bearing with all my nonsense and crap. You are the one the kept our friendship going, and obviously i am grateful for that. You rock. =) Luckily, we will still be in the same CCA next year.I'm honoured to be the one to bring you back to the catholic church. I enjoy your company in church too! You are one holy girl too, always praying such long prayers. Haha. You never seem to get angry or even dislike anyone, until maybe this last two terms. First time i see you 'dao-ing' a person and showing her the irritated face. Haha. I'm proud of you! =) No, actually, you shouldn't be like me, always hating people and all. It's not what God want us to do, He wants us to love our neighbours as we love ourself.Let's both try not to dislike her anymore ok dear?Jesiska here is another smartass. She got forth in class for overall end-year examinations! She got A1 for so many subjects, and is still afraid she cannot get into triple science stream. You need to have more faith in yourself! Haha. She is also a very crap and nonsensical young lady! She was so enthusiastic about cleaning up the class on the last day of school! Haha, you are so cute can!So i just want to thank you being such a nice and caring friend to me. =))

Christabel aka chrissy bella
My dearest table partner for the last two terms of school! I really enjoy your company during lessons, always making the boring lessons fun and interesting with your sense of humour. I know that you are obsessed with disney princesses, Aladdin, Three little pigs and so on so forth. Haha. Sorry for all the times that i ostracized you without any reason for doing so. =(I knew you since the first day we stepped into Cedar because you sat behind me! Haha. But once again, we did not become good friends until like this year? Quite late in the year too. Haha. I guess this shows that one has to take time to realise one's good friends. So we became table partners since about mid-term2? You are always getting picked on by Miss Tan, and me sitting beside you cause me to land into that same fate you were in. Haha. But it really isn't our fault that we had too much saliva to spare, now is it? haha.Christabel is one holy girl too! I mean, when she gives advice, although quite seldom, she will connect whatever the topic is, to what God wants us to do and all. Although her giving advice is quite seldom, whenever she does, it is all carefully thought out and relatively good too. She has always ended up to be the bigger person given her forgiving personality. I think i might try to be like her in this area! Haha. She has a big ego which is really hard to deflate, I guess you might say that it is a good thing that she has so much self-esteem. This kind of people would not be defeated that easily.I remember sms-ing you alot on one topic as well [sssh!] causing your handphone bill to 'bao'! Haha. It was fun though, wasn't it? Haha. Cutting down on the sms-es now however, wait she get into trouble again because of me. Haha. This girl here is a professional badminton player! The school should treasure her talent, because she is really very good! When Jesiska and I saw her play for the first time, our jaws literally dropped and touched the floor.She is also very strong in the english language and literature too! My two most horrid subjects. Haha. She helped me improve my literature too =) I managed to pass thanks to you dear! Haha. She listens to alot of christian pop songs, introduced some of them to me as well. Loved all of them.Good luck with *coughs*ahem*coughs* and must show me next time ok? =)) Haha. Love ya =D

-29/10/05

The second dedications i ever did. once again, i left out some dedications from the original blog post. hmm, why do i think jesiska rocks so much? and christabel, only now do i realise how hurting and upsetting it is to be ostracized, and i'm very sorry for putting you through hell so many billion times over the past two and a half years.


What if i begin to realise that a person, who is supposed to be my good friend, is not really considered a good friend anymore? I hate when this happens, it happened so many times before, and i lost many 'good' friends because of that. I don't want it to happen again, but i can't help it. I feel as if she and i cannot be good friends, that we do not really 'click' as friends anymore. What am i suppose to do? I can't start ignoring her and ostracizing her because i really don't want to hurt her feelings. I still care for her as a friend, but not a good friend. I can't possibly just go up to her and tell her that i don't think she has the good friend material or whatever you call it. I'm at a loss what to do right now. She is really a sweet person and all, but, somehow, i don't really like her company. I don't look forward to hanging out with her as i did before. I don't know really, the fact that she is a sweet and nice person makes it harder for me to do anything about it. Someone, please help me. =(

-07/11/05

seriously. whats wrong with me! why do i keep questioning whether she and i are good friends? i know, because i feel insecure. i treasure her too much as a friend. sounds illogical? wait till you experience it.


Thats all the posts i could find which is interesting for the past two years! haha. i guess i havent changed that much huh?



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