It isnt as easy as I thought it would be. Being in a church retreat, away from my family, away from the people i am usually with, i was able to concentrate on what i wanted or needed too. Which was, on God and myself. You know, our relationship? I was able to communicate with God and reflect on things, personal things. It was really a good experience for me because i never did have the time to sit down and think. Plus, we usually 'reflected' in a dark room with nice, soothing christian songs' melodies played by the keyboardist. [There is seriously something wrong with how i phrase sentences. yucks] I promised God that i would try my best to continue being that way, you know, close to him, always praying to him and all. But now I realise that it is so difficult to do so. I mean, with temptations and distractions! It is almost impossible really. Even at mass, i get so distracted. During the camp, i paid full attention. Argh. So stressful! Should i try harder or take it slow?? =X

8.9.05
(SALVATION)